I want to love her but….

Live Through This was/is a phenomenal album.  Not just for the rage or for the melodies or the heartache that surrounded it but also for the genius song writing.

But what happened?  Weren’t there drugs around back then too? As in, Courtney’s future let down releases were blamed on the drugs.  But I think there is something more.  It’s not some Kurt conspiracy, I am not saying that it was him that wrote her best songs at all – I think as a writer – Courtney is pretty damn good a lot of the time, but something is missing.

I watch this video – and I love the sparkle, the glitter, the mirror balls but there is something about Courtney herself where I feel she thinks she is looking different to how she actually does! You know how sometimes you pull an expression and you think it looks a certain way but then you catch sight of yourself in the mirror and you think ‘oh’ because something about it doesn’t quite seem right.  That’s Courtney Love to me now – and what is that? Is that her sober? Well to be frank I don’t fully believe she is – I think she’s off the illegal stuff but that by no means says you are sober – especially in la la land.

So…….is this age? Is this just who she has become? Almost like a parody of herself? Or have I just become less tolerant?

I want to like Courtney – in fact, I kind of do, I don’t think she is someone you could spend a HUGE amount of time with in one go – but she’d be good as a dinner guest or someone to go out with once in a while.  I loved her music but haven’t felt ‘it’ for a long time.

I cringed when I heard she was making music again – and this release is WAY better than anything she’s put out in the last few years…but it’s still missing something.  She’s gone back to her screech which is great but her pronunciation of things – the drama she is inflicting into these words and phrases makes me cringe – it’s so over acted but then that is Courtney – but listen to how she was singing on Live Through This and you will see clearly what I mean.

It just saddens me that new fans today would think this is who she is.  Her whole career has been the naughty Madonna – sometimes they could be sisters.  But Courtney’s biggest talent has been her own PR, she is very skilled at this.  Just like Madonna would have to admit she’s not the world’s best singer but she is probably the one of the world’s highest paid singers all the same.  I sometimes look at Madonna and think this is what Courtney Love could’ve been.   And I am glad that she’s not.  I’d invite Courtney to dinner over Madonna any day and have a lot more interest in Courtney musically too (that’s not to say that Madonna hasn’t knocked out the occasional good tune either but sorry, to me it is occasional but Dear Jesse is a permanent fixture on my ipod list all the same….) Courtney love is failing to deliver and I guess I always thought she would deliver and then some.  I love the imagery she uses, I love her writing but something about the execution makes me want to scrub away her recent musical endeavours and savour the doll parts moments of this world.

http://www.stereogum.com/1680020/courtney-love-you-know-my-name-video/video/

 

Treat Tuesday

Oh yes am I mixing things up – music today – but it’s not Monday I hear you cry…….but it is a treat as far as I am concerned.

I love this song.

Mark’s vocals………are rather nice.

and whilst we are on this subject:

In case you haven’t noticed it is almost Christmas – and this is totally the best Christmas song ever written – and it happens to also be by Blink 182, and sung by Mark.

And if you wanted to treat yourself to something Blink shaped this is rather cute:

http://www.amazon.co.uk/Creative-Blink-182-Protective-Case/dp/B00FQFRPPC/ref=sr_1_9/276-1987452-6318037?ie=UTF8&qid=1387274140&sr=8-9&keywords=mark+hoppus

And if you love pop punk and want to start a band or are starting out in a band or just want something with that sort of vibe to watch over Christmas you really should watch this, some of it is horrifying:

http://www.amazon.co.uk/Riding-Vans-With-Boys-Region/dp/B0000Z80CK/ref=sr_1_15/276-1987452-6318037?ie=UTF8&qid=1387274140&sr=8-15&keywords=mark+hoppus

Keeping with the music and Christmas treat theme – if you want a christmas jumper this is surely the only one to even contemplate getting:

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Music Monday

I am liking the little writing missions I am giving to myself so I am going to continue for a bit longer – here is a little one about music.

I looked at the boy in the band – stood on stage with his guitar in his hand, bouncing about to his songs, moving in time with the rhythm and looking out at the crowds.

I looked at his face.  I thought he looked at mine.  My heart skipped a beat.

I looked back.  He was still looking! Or was he? Could he even see me? What if he just had the light in his eyes….maybe it was the girl next to me, or behind? I quickly turned around and looked.  It was possible.  I looked back at the stage and convinced myself he was looking at me.  I felt my stomach flip.  He lent forward with his guitar, peering into the crowd, his eyes definitely rested on my face, and he smiled.  I tried to smile back but my face felt frozen into some gormless stare.  Not my finest moment – of all the times I naturally pouted now would’ve been a good time but no I end up looking like some dumb goldfish flopping about aimlessly out of the water, out of their comfort zone.

I always think the other girl will get the guy.  If the guy seems to like me I will think it’s because he’s not really looked at me properly yet or that he remembered me different to how I really am and if we get past those two hurdles – which isn’t often these days – well then I’d just panic that they would hate who I was.  So I always think the other girl will get the guy – can never accept it might actually be me.  And here I was – way on my way into being deep rooted in adult hood having my stomach flip about whether the guy in the band looked at me.  Lame.  Lame.  Lame!

But I couldn’t help it – he was looking again – I gave a side long sneaky glance around me – everyone else was looking at the singer.  I smiled, in spite of myself and I swear he smiled back.  I felt myself flash back to a goofy, skinny thirteen year old, teeth in braces and chest only just beginning to bud.  I felt the flush of those teenage years and kicked myself.  First I impersonate a fish, now a goofy teenager, there really was no hope for me – my Mother had been right all along.

I flicked my hair back and straightened my top, I had second thoughts and pulled it down a little.  I closed my eyes and counted to 3, I opened them and gave my best smile.

He had his back turned.

‘Rarrrrr’ I accidentally let out loud, much to the surprise of the girl stood next to me, I giggled nervously and tried to think of something to say but was saved by the next song kicking in.

The boy looked at me and this time I held his gaze.  He was staring but what he was seeing I really was not sure.  I pouted, I smiled, was I trying too hard? My face fell and my eyes searched his.  Was he just in a world of his own or could he really see me? I looked around me once more and saw that no one was really paying attention.  This was stupid, I was here to listen to the band and get that live experience of the bass thumping through my very core, get my ears ringing from the drum beat and feel all the bodies surging about in time to the music – making you wonder if you will stay on your feet or get swept along with the melody.

The crowd roared as the song finished, I could feel the hairs on the back of my neck stand on end.  This is why I’d never felt jealous of the girlfriends of the band before – I never wanted to watch the band from the side of stage, taken out of all the crush and the rush and the real true emotion of a live show.  Yes sometimes it got a bit rough but I was big enough to take care of myself.

I loved it down here, not when the boys got stupid and started pushing each other around but I loved to feel the music course through me – going through my veins – giving me an electrical charge – it made me feel like I was being hotwired – that I was being recharged and reenergised.  I didn’t just enjoy this – I needed this.  I need this like an addict craved their needle, it sounds strong but it’s true – I get tetchy when I haven’t been to a gig for a while – I have to have music on all the time – to see it, to feel it to be part of it.  My life blood.  The thing that keeps me sane.  When I can’t find the words to explain something you can bet I will find you the right song or the right piece of music to express what I am feeling.  Music takes me back to memories I had long forgotten.  Without music I think I would be dead!!

I look again at the guitarist on stage, he looks so happy, he looks so lost in his music that I am no longer sure if he really was looking at me or not.  I stare at him for a bit longer, he looks so at home on stage, he looks alive.  He looks over and I smile.  Really smile at him this time and he definitely smiles back.

We’ve been together for 6 months now and I still can’t get used to the whole rock star vibe but I still insist on never watching the band from the side of the stage, I always want to be down at the front – watching my man doing his thing.

The chord strikes out for the last note of the night – as it slowly fades away I make my way backstage.

Music Monday

Well hello – so I’ve been hit with this darn virus that’s going about – couldn’t breathe – almost lost my hearing – yeah it’s been most pleasant (please note the sarcasm).

So that would be why I’ve been absent for a few days – but such is life – these things happen but I will always come back – oh yes, that’s a threat ;op

So music……..I stumbled across a film called Flakes whilst I was off ill.  The girl rides a tricycle and they buy a silver bullet and work in a quirky little community based shop – all things I love the idea of, watching the film a track came on that I started humming along to – throat was still too sore to properly sing too (I hear the world sigh with relief at that), I paused for a moment and thought ‘Awww it’s the Wrens.  I’ve not listened to this track in ages!’

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So here is the track – to celebrate all things Monday like.

Friday is here again!

So what to do, what to do – my kid brother’s band Jet Pack have been added to the wonderful Soccer Six Rock event taking place today: It’s £10 – you should go!

https://www.facebook.com/SoccerSixRock

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http://soccersix2013.com/rock-metal/

Also on tonight is a birthday party/leaving party/gig for Complete Radio Silence

http://www.scarstudios.com/home/

https://en-gb.facebook.com/completeradiosilence

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And because it’s getting cold and feeling Christmassy:

The Southbank centre Christmas market is on http://www.southbankcentre.co.uk/winter-festival/markets

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Natural history museum ice rink is open

http://www.nhm.ac.uk/visit-us/whats-on/ice-rink/

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Regent street lights are now switched on

And for when you get peckish – the BBC good food show – yeah there will be food!

http://www.bbcgoodfoodshow.com/

Large Hadron Collider Exhibition, Science Museum in South Kensington.  Step inside the world’s greatest experiment.  I don’t think anymore needs to be said!

http://www.sciencemuseum.org.uk/visitmuseum/Plan_your_visit/exhibitions/collider.aspx

Beautiful Crime Concept – Lulu Guinness, WC2E 9DH  Lulu is opening a pop up art store in her covent garden shop in connection with the artwork of contemporary art company Beautiful crime

http://www.culturecompass.co.uk/2013/11/13/lulu-guinness-collaborates-with-beautiful-crime-for-art-concept-store/

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Framed Film Festival at the Barbican – £5 – Young film makers with events and creative opportunities – for under 12’s and teenagers, you can learn about animation techniques in free workshops – makes me wish I could be a kid again!

https://www.barbican.org.uk/film/series.asp?ID=1272

Music Monday

Today’s music choice is the new Eminem CD – Marshall Mathers  lp 2.

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Tracklisting:

Bad Guy

Parking Lot

Rhyme or Reason

So Much Better

Survival

Legacy

Asshole

Berzerk

Rap God

Brainless

Stronger Than I Was

The Monster

So Far….

Love Game

Headlights

Evil Twin

Baby

Desperation

Groundhog Day

Beautiful Pain

Wicked Ways

Now I have often had comments of ‘Oh wow you don’t look like an Eminem fan!’ but when I ask someone to explain that they can’t.  But you are right if you mean I don’t wear big chain gold jewellery and where tracksuits and baseball caps.  But of course you don’t mean that because that would mean you were being narrow minded and judgemental right?

And um yeah – that leads nicely into how I think Eminem gets a bad rap….see what I did there, yeah I know – forgive me…….it’s Monday.  I think that each time an Eminem CD comes out there is a group of people somewhere that just pour over the lyrics until they can find something that can shout about as homophobic or racist…..and they’ll find something….but here’s the thing……rightly or wrongly – Eminem had a shitty upbringing – he’s not the first and he won’t be the last, but he had two strong females in his life that didn’t treat him the best.  His Mom and his Wife (ex).  He sang about them in bad ways because they had treated him bad.  I guess some of this was down to youth and some of this was down to rapping.  You tell a story – you tell it in different ways depending on who you are telling it to and the medium used.  For art you can exaggerate, for fiction you can exaggerate, the truth is somewhere in the middle of what you way and what others say.  The area you grow up in and the company you keep will alter how you speak and the words that you think are ok.  Sometimes you will do things for the shock value and sometimes it’s performance art where you take on a character and perform – sort of like acting you know.  But like anything – it’s open to interpretation – some of it will be good and some of it will be bad.  But at some point in your life you have to stop thinking about others and do what feels true to you.  Sometimes you have to just suck up the backlash…….but then you go on to make history and become the first artist to get 7 consecutive numbers ones from cd releases it is surely hard to feel that you are doing anything wrong.

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Now I might not approve of all the language on a cd but I don’t take offence to Eminem.  I think I get what he is trying to say and why he is saying it the way he does.  When you think about how he’s good friends with Elton John and did the skit with Ali G….you know the one when Ali G’s butt is pretty much right in his face……well how can you then say this guy is homophobic?  I personally wouldn’t even call him a woman hater, I think two women hurt him and he uses that in an artistic way.  You may not approve of that way but then you don’t have to buy his music.

With lines such as ‘we’re the perfect match ‘cause you’re a vacuum and I’m a dirt bag’ you can’t take him too seriously but on the flipside you have to marvel at his use of language and the humour and the insight that is there.

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If you don’t like his music fine, but I can’t stand people that dis the guy and his music when it’s obvious they have latched onto a journalist’s story and never really read the lyrics or heard anything.

I think this is one of his best CDs to date. His collaborations work as well as always, as do his samples, there’s a great variety of music on here so…… Enjoy!

Music Monday

Well there could only be one subject for this week’s music monday.

If you never listened to Lou Reed’s music or never listened to The Velvet Underground there is no doubt that you will have heard someone do a cover of one of their songs, or site them as a major influence to them.

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They might not have been the most commerically successful band but they left quite an impression on the music world.

Lou Reed went on to do his own solo work to mixed reviews but either way the man is most definitely a legend.  Sadly, he passed away on Sunday morning.

So enjoy the tunes.

…….”If I could make the world as pure
And strange as what I see
I’d put you in a mirror
I’d put in front of me
I’d put in front of me
Linger on……..”

Tra la la – Music Monday

Yuck

They come from London and they are:

Max Bloom – guitar, vocals

Mariko Doi – bass

Jonny Rogoff – drums

Ed Hayes – guitar (who joined in 2013)

Daniel Blumberg – vocals, guitar (who left in 2013)

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They’ve been my little low-fi loves since their debut album, also called Yuck came out in 2011.

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The song Operation on this album is one of my favourite pick me up songs.

Their new album Glow and Behold is out now.  Released on 27 September.  I was really looking forward to it, and it’s not that I felt let down by the first listen – it was just lacking something that the first album had.  About half way through the album picks up a pace, only to go back down again to their low fi tra la la. 

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Ok this is sounding more negative than it is meant.  Yuck have this lovely low fi sound with a bit of nice oompfy chuggy bass and guitar going on, then they can also do sugar sweet low fi.  To me the debut album has a really lovely mixture of both styles throughout the whole CD but Glow and Behold seems to  lean too heavily on the more sugar sweet low fi.  This in itself is not a problem as such – it still makes for a lovely pleasant indie low fi album.  But I know of the greatness they are capable of and I don’t think they pulled enough punches on this CD, maybe they had to play it a bit safer, maybe they felt a bit more chilled out.  If you have not heard any of Yuck before – get both CDs, you will see what I mean.

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In between albums Daniel left the band – and maybe this is why the sound has changed somewhat.  It may’ve changed but they are by no means ready to be written off. 

 I think Glow and Behold will be a grower, whereas Yuck was an instant hit with me.

 If you like My Bloody Valentine then Yuck should be in your music collection too. 

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FIND OUT MORE: http://yuckband.com/

 

 

Friday is here again……

Friday 4th October – Complete Radio Silence + support

Bridgehouse 2 Canning town

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Drive in Film Club, Brent Cross Shopping Centre – this is a bit awesome.  £22 for your car, no matter how full and you get to feel like you are in the past – watching a movie, in your car.

Check out more about this and other pop up events in London here:

http://www.londonpopups.com/2013/09/the-drive-in-film-club-at-brent-cross.html

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Malaysia Night , Trafalgar Square, Fri Oct 4

Trafalgar square will be taken over with all the sounds and sights of Malaysia with lots of food and things to do to help you soak up this culture.

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Transcender  – Barbican, Oct 4-6, a mixture of sounds and shows of the psychedelic kind will be held, for more information go to:

http://www.barbican.org.uk/music/series.asp?id=886

 

Elefest  – Elephant & Castle, Oct 4-6 – Celebrating the area with artists, writers, food, film find out more details:

http://www.elefest.org/

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Amy Winehouse: For You I was a Flame – Proud Camden, Chalk Farm

This exhibition runs until Sunday – various artworks celebrating Amy Winehouse

http://www.amywinehousefoundation.org/amys30event/proud-gallery-camden-amy-winehouse-for-you-i-was-a-flame

 

The Kerb – King’s Cross – This is a food party – or food market if you will.  There will be music, crafts and drink as well. It is FREE and runs from 6 pm – 11pm

http://www.kerbfood.com/kings-cross/

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Roller Skate – Wellington Arch – it’s FREE yippee and starts at 8pm All about having a skate on a Friday night and a stroll on a Sunday – sounds perfect to me – to find out more:

http://www.lfns.co.uk/

 

The Big Draw This is promoting drawing – for all ages, all styles all over London and many other countries as well.  All sorts of things will be going on so please do check it out:
http://www.campaignfordrawing.org/bigdraw/

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Wimbledon Bookfest is still running. Find out who will be talking and what events are running throughout the weekend at:

http://www.wimbledonbookfest.org/

Whatever you do this weekend, wherever you go and whoever you see – have a good one! 

 

Questions about music

I got sent this today.

Completed in my lunch break without much thought.  Sometimes I think quick fire things are better if you think about things too long you can try to be too cool – and I prefer things a bit natural.

Ask me tomorrow and my answers would be all different I am sure – it all depends on what you are feeling on that day – what you have been listening to recently etc etc and that is the beauty of music – it fits everything, it has a place in every aspect/area of your life and can help you, hurt you, break you, make you…..music is a bit awesome like that.

Be cool if any of you wanted to complete it to!
So here goes:

  • 1: A song you like with a color in the title
  • PURPLE RAIN
  • 2: A song you like with a number in the title
  • 29 X THE PAIN BY THE WILDHEARTS
  • 3: A song that reminds you of summertime
  • SUNSHINE GIRL BY THE YO-YO’S
  • 4: A song that reminds you of someone you would rather forget about
  • ANYTHING BY NICK CAVE
  • 5: A song that needs to be played LOUD
  • EVERYTHING!
  • 6: A song that makes you want to dance
  • MANY BUT SOMETHING THAT COMES TO MIND IS IT’S A GIRL THING BY MY LIFE STORY
  • 7: A song to drive to
  • DRIVING SONG BY SPINNERETTE
  • 8: A song about drugs or alcohol
  • PINK ELEPHANTS AND LEMONADE BY MADONNA
  • 9: A song that makes you happy
  • STRAIGHT LINES – BY SILVERCHAIR – IT MAKES ME SHOULDER DANCE LIKE DANIEL!
  • 10: A song that makes you sad
  • RIP (REST IN PISSEDOFFNESS) BY BIKINI KILL
  • 11: A song that you never get tired of
  • ANTHEM BY THE WILDHEARTS
  • 12: A song from your preteen years
  • MANHATTAN SKYLINE BY AHA
  • 13: One of your favorite 80’s songs
  • HEAD OVER HEELS BY TEARS FOR FEARS
  • 14: A song that you would love played at your wedding
  • LOVE FOOL BY THE CARDIGANS – OK I AM JOKING – I DON’T KNOW I THINK I AM THE ONLY GIRL ON THE PLANET THAT HAS NEVER PLANNED HER WEDDING
  • 15: A song that is a cover by another artist
  • HURT BY NINE INCH NAILS
  • 16: One of your favorite classical songs
  • ANYTHING FROM THE NUTCRACKER BALLET
  • 17: A song that would sing a duet with on karaoke
  • I WOULD NEVER EVER EVER SING KARAOKE – IT’S MY GIFT TO THE WORLD
  • 18: A song from the year that you were born
  • I DON’T KNOW – I WASN’T REALLY LISTENING TO MUSIC AT THAT POINT BUT NICE TRY IN TRYING TO FIND OUT HOW OLD I AM
  • 19: A song that makes you think about life
  • ONE DAY SON BY FIGHTSTAR
  • 20: A song that has many meanings to you
  • FUCK THE PEOPLE BY THE KILLS
  • 21: A favorite song with a person’s name in the title
  • THE PIXIES – ALLISON
  • 22: A song that moves you forward
  • RITE OF SPRING BY AVA
  • 23: A song that you think everybody should listen to
  • THINKING IN REVERSE BY THE DISSOCIATIVES
  • 24: A song by a band you wish were still together
  • EAU’D TO BEDROOM DANCING BY LE TIGRE
  • 25: A song by an artist no longer living
  • DRAIN YOU BY NIRVANA
  • 26: A song that makes you want to fall in love
  • I AM NOT EVEN A SNOW PATROL FAN BUT THE CHORUS TO CARS IS PRETTY DAMN ROMANTIC
  • 27: A song that breaks your heart
  • COUNTING FRIENDS BY THE SENSELESS THINGS – IT DOESN’T BREAK MY HEART BUT IT DOES MAKE ME WANT TO CRY
  • 28: A song by an artist with a voice that you love
  • ACROSS THE NIGHT BY SILVERCHAIR
  • 29: A song that you remember from your childhood
  • TAKE ON ME BY AHA
  • 30: A song that reminds you of yourself
  • BABY COME ON BY +44